I am doing it. I really officially started this week.
On top of that I have taken the contract very seriously and I have been taking excellent care of myself, eating well, getting exercise, and trying to get enough sleep (I have been dealing with bouts of insomnia since I really started to delve into this stuff, but it is ok, I am ok).
I have been thinking seriously about my negative blurts about myself and really trying to work through them, and now it is time for me to really face my monsters and demons. I am a little worried about it, but I am also excited about it.
I have also been keeping a live journal. Know, my morning pages are still written by hand in my notebook, but my live journal is more a way for me to publicly work through this stuff. This way my nearest and dearest can see what it is that I am trying to affect in my life, and what exactly I am going through to get there. So far I have gotten a lot of really good encouragement from those I love that have been reading along.
And that really helps to quelch that damn negative voice that tells me that nobody really cares.
So the main reason for posting in a live journal is because if I make this whole process that I am undertaking public, then it really motivates me to see it through till the end, because now those closest to me know exactly what I am trying to do, and if I allow myself to stop and atrophy and stagnate, I will have to answer to them about it.
I am so grateful that the artist way exists. I have needed to do this for a long time, and this recovery process has become essential to me, a right of passage into actualizing myself into who I really am.
I know that this journey will not always be easy, and it is certainly not effortless, but I am taking it very seriously.
So, I just wanted to share all of that with you guys. Thanks to Lobicita for giving us a place to share with each other.
Love and encouragement to each of you on your path!
P.S. If any of you are interested in reading my lj, there is a link to it in my profile, I am an open book with nothing to hide, and since you guys are undertaking the same process, I welcome any feedback and encouragement that you can offer.
On top of that I have taken the contract very seriously and I have been taking excellent care of myself, eating well, getting exercise, and trying to get enough sleep (I have been dealing with bouts of insomnia since I really started to delve into this stuff, but it is ok, I am ok).
I have been thinking seriously about my negative blurts about myself and really trying to work through them, and now it is time for me to really face my monsters and demons. I am a little worried about it, but I am also excited about it.
I have also been keeping a live journal. Know, my morning pages are still written by hand in my notebook, but my live journal is more a way for me to publicly work through this stuff. This way my nearest and dearest can see what it is that I am trying to affect in my life, and what exactly I am going through to get there. So far I have gotten a lot of really good encouragement from those I love that have been reading along.
And that really helps to quelch that damn negative voice that tells me that nobody really cares.
So the main reason for posting in a live journal is because if I make this whole process that I am undertaking public, then it really motivates me to see it through till the end, because now those closest to me know exactly what I am trying to do, and if I allow myself to stop and atrophy and stagnate, I will have to answer to them about it.
I am so grateful that the artist way exists. I have needed to do this for a long time, and this recovery process has become essential to me, a right of passage into actualizing myself into who I really am.
I know that this journey will not always be easy, and it is certainly not effortless, but I am taking it very seriously.
So, I just wanted to share all of that with you guys. Thanks to Lobicita for giving us a place to share with each other.
Love and encouragement to each of you on your path!
P.S. If any of you are interested in reading my lj, there is a link to it in my profile, I am an open book with nothing to hide, and since you guys are undertaking the same process, I welcome any feedback and encouragement that you can offer.
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