yesterday i had a mini breakthrough:

i reread the chapter. and i took a long walk.

those two things helped me to see that i might be putting too much pressure on myself right now. and also to realize that i have this friend who has been offering me help with my art project, he is encouraging me... and i have been deflecting it. the chapter, of course, talks about those whom we should avoid.. but rereading it made me realize that i should not be avoiding those who are good for me! (it is an oversized piece that i need help sourcing some of the raw materials)

the walk helped. letting myself reread the chapter and take another stab at getting this to work helped.

[we won't talk about morning pages]